Life is strange. It takes the most unexpected turn when you least expect it to and lands you up somewhere you had never thought you would go...it takes you there...and drops you in the ditch...leaving you to fend for yourself. And there you are , with not a clue of how you got there and before you know it , you are swimming against the tide for survival...

When the hurt and the rage inside subsides , when all that had to happen has happened , when you finally realize it is time to hang your shoes because there is no way you can fight any more...there comes a time when it dawns on you that you are in this alone...that no matter what happens , no one is going to fight your battles. that whether you are going to sink or swim is nobody's business but your own.that whatever is happening to you will change you whether or not you like it.

And in that moment , you finally let go of your guard and stop pretending that you are fine.

That , i concede to be my greatest achievement in the past few days. And my most liberating moment.

Things have been rough for some time now. I have lost friends , been accused of being a million things by the people closest to me , been bitched about at odd hours in a shady bar on the Bombay Pune highway, gone from being best friends to being strangers in the same room , have fought , reconciled and fought again.

That is a snapshot of my life in lately.

Scary , confusing , hurtful and a constant dull ache inside...